Thankfully Overwhelmed

{A life I love so very much}

•Let me start out by just saying, please don’t misunderstand the title or this blog entirely, it is not meant to sound like a pile of complaints.

I am a 31 year old full time working wife and mother to 2 children who simply just needed to get her feelings out on paper or in this case my notes section of my Apple I phone. 🤷‍♀️

Life this day and age is ever evolving and changing. I don’t know about you or your household, but for us it seems that no matter how many times we try we can NEVER stay on a good routine. Despite our best efforts to have our beautiful, well mannered, little angels eat 3 balanced meals a day, always get along, and say their prayers every evening I want to be completely honest with you so here it goes……

We never achieve much of the above listed. Not even close.

And that is where this entire thing began.

One night while sitting outside my daughters door in an effort to get her to bed, on her own, without having to give in I sat and wrote each word you’re reading.

This is not a book/blog/vent session for you to read; merely a few thoughts rambled out on my phone that I hoped might encourage not only others, but in a few years I’d look back and remember how truly THANKFUL I am to be so so so so so overwhelmed right now.

Life right now for us, my husband Garry and I, seems to be moving so fast, but some days/nights are soooo long at the exact same time somehow. Grayson is my kind hearted 6 year old, soon to be 7 and while he has the appearance of a 10 year old and an IQ way above mine he has these emotionally immature moments that make me want to pull my hair out. The tantrums that come out of nowhere over things he knows are no big deal, but bless him he can’t help it and so we continue to work through it, as a family, one day at a time!

Then there is Abigail, sweet sweet 2 going on 22 year old Abigail. She’s my spitfire, my independent mountain moving, the skies the limit fierce child. She has us by the horns and she can outsmart the best of them. Let’s just say she is going to have her way in life no doubt about it. So with her we just take it one day at a time!

If you’re noticing a pattern here it’s because there is one. In this household, I have learned, if we begin to worry too much or too long on tomorrow or even next week, we all become a little more uptight. I can feel myself getting tense just even mentioning the list of things I have to think about for tomorrow to do, but man next week, it CAN and WILL wait! I mean come on, at the end of the day what do we have to truly show for ourselves if we don’t take the time to stop and enjoy the moments that are passing us by? ….. nothing.

It is repeated in the Bible twice that I can find ,”What is it if you gain the whole world, yet forfeit your soul?”

Matthew 16:26

Mark 8:36

And if The Lord said it twice then that’s enough to get my attention, because I don’t want him to have to repeat that again! I take notice; now!

You see for me I have struggled more recently with trying to not become too overwhelmed with all the blessings God has given us. He has provided for us in ways I could never even measure or count. There have been times I am not sure I would make it through the day, mainly due to postpartum depression, but he saw me through that dark time. He has seen me through some of the most trying times and I am sure I have forgotten to thank him for it.

If we’re being completely honest here I guess I would say I have or used to be a “well the glass is half empty” kind of girl.

But I am praying so hard now with all of these blessings to make sure that I remember to be thankful to God and find that in reality my glass is ALWAYS half FULL instead!

Now don’t go patting me on the back or putting me on a pedestal, because I haven’t mastered it yet and again I continue to break those chains that once used to bound me to the old girl I used to be. But I am determined to wake up every morning and find that life can hand me lemons and by gosh I can make some darn good lemonade with them; maybe. 🤤😆🤪

Listen, I am just writing this message to be a constant reminder to not only those who read it, but mainly to MYSELF, to always choose thankfulness after I’ve become overwhelmed. Notice I didn’t say over, because, just being transparent again, I don’t want to set myself up for complete face shattering failure. I deep down believe that God does not expect us as mothers or parents to be perfect. I just believe he calls us to do our best; be honest, be kind, be encouraging, be respectful, be understanding (as often as you can), be helpful, be giving, be responsible, and mostly be forgiving.

Forgive yourself right now for all of those times that you yelled or raised your voice at those sweet angels who are sleeping right now that look so precious. Let me remind you they rise again tomorrow to destroy the house you so nicely tidied up before bed without remorse. Be forgiving of the time you didn’t fix that amazingly healthy 4 course meal and make sure they got their vitamins every day (pst, who can even get their kids to take vitamins because it ain’t me).

Most of all, and I’ll wrap this thing up, just know that God forgives you and loves you just as you are sweet mama. He knows our hearts, he knows our struggles, and I pray he knows deep down I want to provide my children with the best life I can, despite alllllllllll of the many mistakes I make daily! So as for me and my home we will take it one day at a time just being thankfully overwhelmed by all of Gods beautiful blessings.

Pray with me,

Lord,

I am thankful for every blessing I have received, big or small, recognized and those I can’t see.

You know that I want nothing more then for my home to be just that, a home. A place where my children can run free and enjoy life with no worries at all. A place filled with love and laughter, but sometimes messes and messy people with a whole lot of forgiveness.

God, I ask that you guide us as we raise these tiny humans and that we show them what your love is like. I pray we as mothers can find time to be with you and that we can use that time wisely as we all know time to ourselves is few and far between.

Lord forgive us for not always valuing ourselves as we lose ourselves in this thing called motherhood. It is so very beautiful.

Also forgive us for our many sins.

In your name we pray,

Amen.

With all the✌🏼 & 💗

Brit